Thursday, January 14, 2010

Not "Why"... But "How"

You know when you think you have an answer to a prayer only to question that answer after something happens? You know... like when you know you are suppose to move somewhere (let's just say Utah) and your husband gets a new calling (lets say in the bishopric)? This isn't the first time this has happened to our family. It always seems to have something to do with moving and callings. My question my friends is.... why??? Why is a calling more important than quality of life for my girls? Why must we live in a small house in the middle of polluted, ugly, loud, crowded Californi? Why must we have to stay in a ward where my girls are either a year too old or too young to be part of "the group"? Why do we have to live in a community where status, clothing, and objects are soooo important?

Unfortunately, I don't have the answers! I just know for now we are remaining citizens of the good old state of California and I will try to stop asking "why" and start asking "how". How can I teach my girls the importance of humility and wise spending? How can I help my girls feel included in a ward that is happy with the friends they have had since birth? How do I dejunk so we can live comfortably in the house we have? How do I trust that "my answer" is "His answer"?

Enough questions.... for now I will enjoy my warm sunny days that don't require shoveling snow before exiting my driveway :) Because, instead of wishing for something I don't have- I will spend my energy enjoying the blessings we have been given!


Preemie Miracle said...

Thank you for visiting my blog. And I totally agree with you. I often wonder why the heck we were suppose to move back to Utah and leave all the AWESOME services we did for Tyler back in Arizona... its like a leap of faith... YIKES>..

Janice Draper said...

We felt strongly about a year ago we were suppose to move. I was tired of Bellingham, politics, weather and the list goes on. We felt like we had become stagnant (sp) in our spiritual growth. We also felt we needed to be closer to family. We thought we had it all figured out. Then almost 1 year ago Wade got the wind knocked out of him by being called to the Bishopric. Just when we think we have it all figured out Heavenly Father slaps us with a reality check. It keeps us humble, and reminds us that we really are not in charge, Heavenly Father is.

Patricia Myers said...

That's a tough one. But your family is doing the right thing by relying on the Lord.
Utah isn't perfect either. Standards are going downhill. Good LDS families are letting standards slide and everyone wants to be like all of their friends.
It's a struggle regardless what state you live in!
The only thing that keeps a family strong is making sure both parents work together and what's being taught in the home continues once the children walk out the front door.
PRAY PRAY PRAY because prayer does work.

Wendy Smith said...

Wow! I thought I was happy here! :) Sounds like life is really rough for you right now. So sorry your girls are miserable! We actually do care about and love them. Wishing you all peace, tranquility, and clean air...